Lost (ch1)

I pressed my back against the stone wall across from me. I slid down to the floor slowly and started crying. I was crying out of self-pity, yes, but I was also crying because I was angry. Angry at the world it seemed. My best friend friend, Taylor, came running around the corner, spotting me with wide-eyes full of worry. I turned my face down into my hands and sobbed. Taylor walked cautiously toward me -her steps didn't make so much as a shuffle- and she sat down right next to me.
"So," Taylor started "What happened back there?"
 I recalled the event again, trying to sort out everything that happened. I snapped, which wasn't like myself at all. I was usually quiet and reserved, but back there I let out a loud angry speech.
"I don't know." I tried to swivel myself around, away from Taylor, but I didn't move. I just awkwardly scooted foward. Taylor sighed.
"You want to explain why you lashed out at my best friend?"
My eyes watered at the words "best friend"
"You want to explain why you treated me like dirt for the past two months?" My voice sounded shaky. I moved my head to the right, looking at anything but Taylor, trying to fight back tears.
Taylor scoffed. "I wasn't treating you like dirt!"
All of the sudden I stood abrubtly "So tell me why you didn't talk to me for two months! Tell me why you acted like I wasn't your friend anymore! Tell me why you ignored my phone calls, my emails, and my letters. Tell me why you were spreading rumors behind my back to your new clan of bitches! Tell me why I'm not important to you anymore, because before those little ditz's became your new best friends, I was, and now you disregard our friendship like it was nothing! Like it was never anything! Tell me why you had to treat me like crap to be accepted into their sorority. But most importantly, tell me why you would treat me like crap to be just as stupid and cruel as they are!"
Taylor looked up at me. She shook her head back and forth slowly pursing her lips. She glared at me cruelly "You want to know why? Because I am bored. We are the two most boring people in the world. We talked about school, homework, tests, boys we could never get in our wildest dreams, and what summer was going to be like. We thought we were going to change, but remember what we were like at the beginning of the year? The same. We were the same and I wanted to be different. Better. I wanted to get the guys I wanted, I wanted to not be worried about school or tests, and I wanted thrills, so I became friends with Trisha. So what? She's not as horrible as you make her out to be."
I scoffed. "Yeah scewing guys, getting STD's, doing drugs, and being a complete bitch sounds amazing."
"Your just mad because she's prettier than you, more fun than you, and a better friend than you will ever be. " Taylor was standing up now, looking at me with the same cruelty in her eyes as the rest of her new sorority. Her words hurt me deeply, cutting into my already salted, stinging wounds. I took a step back. My only friend -who was not my friend at all- I had lost. I had no one else in the world, and she was gone.
"I was always there for you, though. You think you have a true friend now? Wait until she leaves you. I'm done, Taylor. I'm not going to fight with you anymore. I'm sorry."
Taylor flipped her hair back from the front of her shoulder and switched her stance to one that said Haha-I-Don't-Need-You-I'm-Better-Than-You. "She won't betray me because she isn't a bad person. Plus, you should be sorry, for her sake at least. Thinking you were as good of a friend as she is." She laughed.
"Oh, so why are you grounded, Taylor? Because you got caught doing what? Giving someone a blowjob in the bathroom? And who was watching out for you? Oh, thats right, no one! But who was supposed to be watching you? Oh, thats right Trisha was! She bolted right when she saw the principal. I was there, I saw the whole thing. You ask her next time what happened, and I bet she will lie to you. Thats the one thing you can never hold against me, Taylor. She may be more fun, prettier, and a better friend than me, but I have never lied to you. I will never lie to you. Why would I? You are my best friend. Friends don't lie to each other." I gulped loudly. I let the tears run down my cheek.
Taylor considered my speech for a moment, and then scowled. "Shove off Haylie, your just mad because Trisha is a better person than you are."
I was frozen to where I was standing. A lump formed in my throat. I was about to say something, but gave up. If she didn't want to be friends that was fine to me. She didn't want to believe the truth, fine. I finally shook my head and walked away without a backward glance.