how interesting

my family is, and my families family who isnt related to me. and how random and spontaneous they are. and how i
ve never met certain people ever, and how they lead their own lives, and if you really think about it, you probably woulsd never im[pact them in the first place even if they met you like ten years ago because you are not that important. i thought i would just try and express that feeling that i feel right now because i cant exactly say it out loud. and and and and i almost came out to my family. :)
almost, not quite. I'm thinking about it, but i'm not sure. Maybe i will maybe i won't. its probahly the wrong thing to try asnd hide it from my family.

but who knows how they will react?! its all just guessing games from here on out.

and dammit i still have to read....


The Scarlet Letter and
On Writing